Suck it Up

so.

because of recent failures in the category known as math, and mom saying she wouldn’t bug me about it anymore,

what does that equal?

a bunch of bullshit.

then there’s the saying,

it’s too good to be true.

hell that quote is the most accurate shit i’ve ever heard all my life.

naively thinking, oh mom will understand i tried my hardest,

i forgot one other little factor.

my mom’s bloody old-school asian.

so.

where does that leave me?

glad to be out of the shithole in 3 days,

glad to be out of the house in 3 hours,

and

glad to be out of my naive little bubble in 3 minutes.

of course after i rant about it here of course.

it’s funny how people think math runs the world.

i just don’t see how.

when will we ever use logs (besides in chemistry) in real life?

when will we ever use trigonometry (besides engineering) in real life?

sure all the above apply to one specific job,

but i’m not going into any of them.

in conclusion, the world is f*cked up.

 

Overeaction

well.

it wasn’t that bad.

we ended up seeing some other movie instead of kung fu panda but it was still good.

we went to williams after.

that was okay too.

strangely i wasn’t all like worried about it when i was there.

it was fun.

trust me to overreact haha.

been watching 溏心风暴.

on episode 18 whoot whoot!

must finish before je partie à Paris

mm… gonna catch up on some sleep, pulled an all-nighter…

nite darlings!

P.S. Lush Valley new post is up!

Stupid Stupid Stupid

it’s official.

evidently, i was smoking something or something of equal stupidity inducing proportions.

number one: i accepted the offer to go to the movies when i don’t like the guy. that way.

number two: i finally gave in and got facebook.

you know, i was really proud of being one of the only few people in the world who didn’t have facebook.

then along came a spider (a.k.a Paris), and i realized i needed facebook to keep in touch with all my Parisian buddies.

looks like i was fighting fate.

now the movie crisis, reasons why i should go:

he’s paying for my ticket (but he owes me that amount of money anyways)

i get to see kung fu panda (even though i could’ve seen it with other people)

his birthday’s next monday and it would make him happy if you go (otherwise known as pity)

he’s a good friend of mine (despite him pissing me off every other day)

reasons why i shouldn’t go:

i’d be leading him on (if he has the intention of something like that. not the first time that it’s happened)

he doesn’t have a cellphone on him (stand-up rate is definately higher)

he’s paying for my ticket (i feel guilty) [what am i saying he OWES me the money!]

oh crap. looks like the going list outweighs the non-going list.

je suis très stupide non?

je pense que je doit parler en français parce que je partirai pour Paris en six jours.

à cause de mes cours d’espagnol, mon français a disparû completement!

pour example: quand je pense de le verb “to go” en français, je pense “ir” mais “ir” est espagnol pour “to go”

je peux utiliser le present avec no problème, mais des autres tenses de les verbes comme le conditionnel y le plus que parfait, j’oublie quand j’utilise y pourquoi on les doit utiliser.

l’imparfait et le passé composé son très déroutants parce que les deux son utiliser pour le passé mais le type de “passé” son différents.

asse’à ce sujet.

prom.

l’année prochaine, je terminerai mon lycée, et je n’aurai pas un petit ami o un ami/un compagnon.

ce n’est pas un grand problème, et l’année dernière, je ne me suis pas inquiété.

mais alors, j’ai rencontré 蝦餃.

蝦餃 est un ami… au moins, je pense qu’il est.

il est un an plus vieux que moi, et nous sommes allés à le même lycée.

il va à  l’université Western Ontario l’année prochaine et parce qu’il était mon compagnon pour tout des les soirées, je n’aurai pas un compagnon pour l’année prochaine.

il ne sera pas ici.

parce que j’étais avec lui, j’ai éprouvé l’amusement d’avoir un associé de danse. je ne veux pas devenir tout seul à les soirées encore.

mais ne pense pas que je n’irai pas a les soirées. avec ou sans compagnon, j’irais.

je n’ai pas besoin de lui. il est seulment mon associé de danse.

il n’est pas mon petit ami.

et je ne le verrai jamais.

 蝦餃 m’a fait marcher. ça c’est prouvé.

Sunshower

hm.

waking up in the morning to a sunshower isn’t that bad is it?

of course trying to remember what i was dreaming of last night makes rolling around in bed that much enjoyable.

too bad i still can’t remember most of it.

then i remember i’m going out to the movies with a guy friend of mine tomorrow night.

too bad i’m not looking forward to it.

it was really hot last night.

too bad my air conditioning system broke down.

then i remember my french assignment rotting away on my desk.

tant pis que je n’ai voulu pas le faire.

my cellphone rang at 2 AM last night.

too bad i’m a heavy sleeper.

then last night i could’ve danced the night away with you.

too bad you weren’t there.

In Denial

so.

i just managed to fail exams.

go me.

life’s great isn’t it?

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on a happier note,

you know people never notice the good things in life until they’re hit over the head with the club of gratefulness.

i for one am thankful for my paris trip with my buddies.

i am thankful for my sisterhood.

i am thankful for the ability to dance and play piano.

i am thankful for Christmas.

i am thankful for living in a house.

i am thankul for having a decent-sized wardrobe.

i am thankful for my extended friends.

i am thankful for my three turtles 红豆沙

i am thankful for having a bed, pillow, and mountains of stuffed animals.

i am thankful for good genes.

i am thankful that my cousin is potty-trained.

i am thankful for life in general.

now, doesn’t that cheer you up?