confusion.

so.

it’s time to sort out my thoughts again.

exactly how do i get out of this pickle?

it’s not a pickle exactly, but a feeling of anxiety and uneasiness

it’s gone pretty far.

and now i have something to lose.

what i mean by that is that i can’t get out of this as scott-free as the others.

i can sit here,

and write a million pages about this,

but it won’t change a thing.

there are some things that are never meant to be said.

especially to the one that it’s referring to.

it’s not, how do you say,

a bad thing neccesarily,

but a risk i don’t know if im willing to take.

but too bad.

i’ve already jumped in headfirst,

and that’ s a hard thing to get out of huh.